I was in despair. My feelings were all mixed up. My thoughts were off in space. I don't know what to do. I don't know what should I do. I've lost my directions. I've lost my faith. I've lost my mind.
It took me about a week to figure out what I really want, and what should I do to get what I want. To be true, I am still clueless. Hopeless. I'm standing on the thin line between keep going on, believing everything will get better by itself and to move on to another option, to start things fresh from bottom again.
Despite every mess I have inside my head, there's still one true person who keep standing behind me. Thank you. I'm sorry I mess everything up. Can't promise you I'll be a better me, but I will try my best.